Fucking tired.

I have been working for four months and GOSH am i proud of myself, knowing my tendency to get sick of things easily. Haven't been blogging much since time is spent between working, sleeping and finding time to spend with family, friends and gene.

I feel so guilty about not seeing my parents and sis for such a long period. But I really can't help it. I've never been an early bird and i would have probably gone extremely broke if i don't stay at Gene's place. The amount of money i spend cabbing to and fro work is ridiculous. Imagine at least 10 bucks per day. If i cab from home, that'll be 30 bucks at least, per day. Jesus Christ! I usually wake up with enough time to say SHIT! and be out of the house in 10 minutes to cab to work. It's that bad. HORRIBLE. That's how the remaining of my life would be like, unless i live off my parents. Eeek!

Most of my female friends are preparing to enroll for universities and the guys are waiting to be enlisted. I do feel left out but that's how things are going to be. I've no idea what i want to study and hell am i not going to take a degree course for the sake of a fucking degree. My parents (read: my mum) has been going on about me not continuing with my studies and almost every single fucking person has been telling me that once i start working, i'll probably not want to study again.

IS IT A FORMULA I MUST FOLLOW?

Why must i study, then work? Why do you think that once i start working, i won't want to study? And why on earth are you there to judge me on that? Would it make a difference either way? As long as i'm happy, i'm doing what i love (which i'm still searching) and i'm earning enough to live comfortably, does it fucking matters?

And what makes people think that when i talk about my plans for the future, i'm asking for ADVICE, albeit unnecessary and mostly unappreciated advice?

It can be so frustrating, how people follow certain thinking. THINK OUT OF THE DAMN BOX, THINK OUT OF THE WAY. THINK! Most of the time when people say things, do they really think about it or are they simply prescribing to certain thinkings? Why must i be like everyone else? Why not everyone be like me? Why always a single solution to an open-ended question?

Why?

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END. I'm going to sleep. Fucking tired and i have to work till Sunday. Fuck man.